Change in plans.......

Tammy, Dr. Wilks' nurse, called me this morning at 7:20am.  She told me that Dr. Wilks looked at my ultrasound last night and then called the ultrasound technician to verify what she saw.  Apparently Cooper is breech and she is going to have to take him by C-section.  I was completely shocked.  I never saw that coming.  I was confused because I watched yesterday where she was holding the wand (for a lack of the correct terminology) and what I was seeing on the screen.  She gave me no indication what so ever that he could be in a different position.  Tammy told me that the technician was not allowed to tell me he was breech but still you would think I would have some kind of motherly instinct to know that something wasn't right!   The only thing that makes sense to me is I know his feet are on the right side of my belly and his hiccups have been coming from my far left side so maybe he is sideways with his butt in the middle.  Tammy told me about the C-section and about how they would call later to get me scheduled.  I was so shocked (and I was on duty) that I didn't think or know what questions to ask her.  Since then I have been asked a thousand questions and I have that many to ask but that is really all that I know.  I also remember her mentioning that he is a big baby and it might have been hard for me to deliver him vaginally anyway.  Since then I keep hearing suggestions about what I should be doing to get him flipped and to be honest I am still grasping the fact that I am going to have to have a c-section that I can't think about what I could be doing.  I guess now I will start reading up on c-sections since I always seemed to skip that information.  My induction date was suppose to be next Thursday the 29th and Tammy told me she wanted to get me in ASAP but that would be the latest date since I already had it scheduled.  Then they called this afternoon to tell me that Friday the 30th was the first time they could get me in.  That is just 2 days before my due date.  So I guess Friday is the day.  I have an appointment with Dr. Wilks on Tuesday so I can bombard her with all of my questions then.    

My mom brought up a good point.  She said that this way  I know I won't encounter my two biggest fears.  Those being 1) being induced 2) hours of hard labor that end in an emergency c-section.  I have to say that I was not tightly holding on to the dream of delivering vaginally like some people do.  I just like to know what is going on and I am completely overwhelmed because I thought I was ready for any scenario and apparently I'm not.  I am a little nervous now about being able to breast feed and bond with him right after he is born.  I know the bottom line is that I am going to have a beautiful healthy baby boy no matter how I deliver.  I just need to focus on that.  

I have to say that this way God did answer my prayers (about the induction).  Now I will have to ask him for peace about the c-section.  Doesn't God have a funny way of answering prayers sometimes..........